Just at a loss...

No words of wisdom.  No trust in faith in this one.  This one is going to have to be blood, sweat, and tears.  Drag myself up and onward.  - Ran across this quote on twitter and it struck deep.  "We may get knocked down on the outside, but the key to living in victory is to learn how to get up on the inside." - Joel Osteen - and I will get up again, I always do.  A little more battle-weary for spirit but nonetheless.  I will be a better person for it.  I know who I am, where I am going in life, and what the hell I am worth.  I am worth so much more than what I was demanding.  If it is meant to be then it will be.  Others need to do the same.  Let go of their past and demand a better future for themselves, but again, all in choices.  We all have to make them.  To some, it's just easier to go with the flow.  Self-absorbed.  Me. Me. Me.  Never thinking of anyone else?  Yeah - I don't and never will understand that mindset.  Do what you've always done and not change a thing.  Live in the shadows.  I refuse to do that.

So I am reading Druid Power - researching for the book I am writing.  A tale of this relationship - a little embellished and some, not so much.  It is fiction after all.   Celtic history is amazing and I am so drawn to the druid beliefs.  Hell, I am drawn to anything not of this world.  lol... typical me... living one foot outside of bounds everyday seems to be the way of it.  It's all good.  I have said it a million times - it will take a strong man to ever tolerate what I instinctively know, and understand.  It will take a strong man to match me.  It looks as though - that is something I will never have.  I'm okay with that.  Well, I will be fine.  Truth of the matter is - I knew from the beginning that this would be a hell of a ride.  Darkhorse.  Twin flame or not - whatever is written, it shall be.  I just have to find peace.  Be still.

So I keep having this desire to move to KY.  I said I wasn't running and I'm not.  But I am going to start over and my brother needs me as well as my Mom.  So yeah, I think out of state is definitely on the agenda.  Now just to find the means to get us there.  Soon.  Like before Thanksgiving soon!  Where there is a will, there is a way ;). 

I signed up for body piercing certification.  Interesting huh?  I am an artist.  I am a spiritualist.  I am an author.  I am a Reiki Master.  Spiritual Healer, empath, sympathetic, and hell, green witch, and partial medium.  Really?  What kind of resume does that translate to ???  Yeah one of someone well rounded and who knows entirely too much some times.  I guess I wouldn't change it for the world.  I just have to start understanding that people have to WANT to change.  They have to WANT you.  To move heavens and earth for someone... or try - well, enough on that...

I share too much with too many and not enough with others... I am sure my family will be holding counsel on me with this outing.  Yeah not so great on the witchery thing... but if they truly love me then they will let me explain the religion... not judge me by the term.  Til next time ya'll.  Try and make it great.

Love & Light,
~ V ~